Success doesn’t have an expiration date

Theodore Roosevelt was the one who cleverly stated, “Comparison is the thief of joy.” I think about that a lot especially now being a young adult. Last December I went to my 5 year high school reunion. Bad idea right? Kind of. It was nice to see some of my classmates and I was happy for them that they seemed to excel in life, but it really made me feel like I haven’t accomplished anything. I know I shouldn’t compare myself to them, they are completely different from me and on a different level than I am. They were either successful in their ever growing careers whereas I am still a waitress at a steakhouse. Or they were almost done obtaining their Master’s Degree where I have four full semesters until I complete my Bachelor’s degree. Or maybe they just had their own business or what not, one of my classmates married a rich doctor and had a house and a beach house. Wow! All so amazing things while I am still living in an apartment. I have never felt so behind in my life. I have not accomplished anything that I had wanted to yet and I felt all this pressure from seeing how far behind I was from them. It’s hard because it really made me take a closer look at myself. This blog that I am so proud of and write in is still private except to random people who may find this site or anyone I have shared it with so far. I still haven’t finished a book I started three years ago and could have finished a long while ago. I am so afraid of finishing it and it isn’t good enough, or maybe no one will buy it. Who knows? But if I don’t finish it and go through with publishing then I will never know if it sinks or floats. I started to beat myself up about it. But then after coming home I decided to think of things that I have done already and what I am doing to achieve my goals. I have successfully written around 43 blog posts, I have finished my Associates Degree and graduated a week AFTER just popping out a big baby! I got married to my husband at 21 years of age, had a wonderful active son, and now I am pregnant with another boy. I am happy and I still have a lot of work to do before I achieve my degree and or the career of my choice. But I am doing just fine. I may not enjoy my job right now, and it may not pay as much. But I am doing the best that I can and that is enough. I am enough. I work hard at everything I do. I am a good wife, mother, student, writer, worker, and that is enough. I am enough. I am happy for my classmates. I am happy myself. I will get to where I am going in time, because there is no expiration date to success. I shouldn’t feel bad about not having a house yet, not having the career of my dreams yet, not having my Master’s Degree yet, because with hard work and determination those things will come in time. And right now all I can do is my best and that is good enough.